Wednesday, December 26, 2012

Christmas Holiday

Hey y'all!
Koko & Simba 
Merry Christmas! Hope everyone has a break with their family. This Christmas I got a puppy! His name is Simba-I love the Lion King and his name is very fitting! He's a Chinook, he just turned 2 months on the 16th! He his the most adorable puppy ever!!! I've just been spending time with my family going to the festival of lights and hanging out at the house.




Little brothers, mom & I- Jamie my older sister took the picture as this guy behind her was making funny faces 













Not a lot has been going on it been a very relaxing holiday which is super nice & I wish it would last longer.

-Sam

Sunday, December 16, 2012

Busy.. super busy

I know its been a while since I've written anything. Truth is between school, work and drama with a guy just haven' t had time.
So here's whats been going on:
School: 4 classes- I know that doesn't seem like a lot but at my University the class are pretty intense! We have have assignments and projects due before Christmas holiday- the holiday starts on Thursday! Did I mention that it only the 4th week of the trimester! Anyways I'm super excited to  to be away from school and back home with family and some friends in Texas!
Work: I'm a nanny who works some pretty weird hours- you would expect a nanny to work from 4-4am or 9-3pm or something like that but most nanny's dont work for someone who is a bartender. On top of that I'm starting a new job at a bakery& cafe. I know 2 jobs on top of being a full time student! Crazy right?! Well.. bills need to be paid and would like some spending money. So you got to do what you can to support oneself.
Onto the next thing I've been dealing with- guys! ughh.. apparently I attract douchebags! Here's the story- Met the guy in one of my classes last tri. He seemed really nice and he was funny and sweet and cute.  Everyone described him as So cute yet so stupid. If I was thinking clearly I would have saw that as a red flag... nope didn't think anything of it.  Well as the tri went along ( the trimester is 11 weeks long) I started to like him & I thought he liked me too. Boy was I wrong!We spent time together since we were in the same group and had this huge project to work on.  As the tri went along we would flirt with one another and  I would give some hints to him that I liked him-  I didn't want to come out and say- Hey I like you we should date. Since we still had a month before holiday break and we had 2 classes together- we spent 7 hours together each week. I would give him rides to/from school and to his work. Well the last day of class we spent the afternoon together- I took him to the doctors. I told him- everyone thinks were either dating or should date...I'm fine with whatever.. what do you think of it? He said and I quote- "I don't do girlfriends, I've been hurt before and I don't want to be hurt again.. need time to heal." What I told him- oh yeah that makes since. What I thought- "Seriously?!?! Instead of saying don't want to date.. just stay friends you make up this lame excuse.. everyone gets hurt in relationships." Anyways  went on holiday and didn't talk to him came back a week later to start Winter tri and he came up to me when I was talking to a friend and was really happy to see me and acting like nothing happened. So for the last couple weeks we have both been acting like nothing happened and he didn't say what he said and he was being nice and it was a good change...So I thought. Well on Sunday and Monday he called/text me and it really surprised me because he never did that before- all he wanted was a ride to work.  My thoughts: Seriously! we haven't really talked and this is the first thing you ask me? Nice that you  are only using me for a ride? Sorry didn't realize I was your Chauffeur!  I told him I couldn't was at church and about to go to class. Once I told him no he stopped talking to me- this was the 3rd time I told him I couldn't help him. Out of the 15 weeks that we've known each other. On Tuesday during our class I found out that not only has he been using me but he found a "new me" only difference is she smokes and drinks with him and they go out to lunch and hang out on the weekends. We spent a tri together and never once asked if I wanted to do any of that. The thing that makes everything hard is- I felt so hurt when I found out, the fact that I thought he was changing and instead he was just finding someone to do his work.  I know he's a douche and call him what ever you want.. but I feel SOOO stupid for being attracted to him and thinking that we could have something instead of  him just using me and tossing me aside when he was done with what I do for him. Live and learn.. I guess.
New Goal- find a guy that isn't a douche or stupid how hard could that be?

-Sam