Happy Fathers Day

So today is actually a really hard day for me. You see 5 years ago in May my dad passed away, and I had to be the strong one for my family. My mom and sister were nervous wrecks and someone had to step up and take care of the family. If you saw me today- you wouldn't know anything was wrong because I'm a pro at hiding my emotions. I know its not good to do but that's what I do have a wall built around me were no one came get close. I've been this way even before my dad passed away.  Its how I cope with things.
So here's a little letter that for my dad.
 Daddy,
        You taught me how to walk and how to ride a bike. You taught me how to play baseball. You would watch cartoons with me even though you didn't like them. You would let me get away with being "sick" just so I didn't have to go to school and we would watch tv together.

       Some of my favorite memories will always being with you outside while you BBQ and started to teach me how to and swinging back and forth on the porch swing. Watching all of our favorite tv shows, and driving along listening to the oldies station and getting a happy hour drink at sonic.

      I know we had our ups and downs when I became a teenager, and I wish I could go back in time and spend more time with you instead of in my room. I should of listen to you when told me to be careful about my "friends". I know during this time I wasn't the best person to be around and didn't care what you or mamma had to say.   You taught me a lot -how to be accountable, respectful, driven, successful, never giving up. I wouldn't be the person I am today if it was for you and mamma. The fact though all the tough times in school you would never let me give up means a lot and the fact you were right by me each step of the way- I can't tell how much that meant to me, especially with everything you went though as a child.

        I know it was hard for you when I started elementary school and it was really difficult for to teach me how to drive. I know our time together was short and even though you weren't there in person to see me get my license or to graduate from high school and get my associates degree I know you were their in spirit.
     

       I may be growing up and starting my own life and about to live in my first apartment and starting to pay bills and all the other adult things. Two things will never change 1. you'll always be my dad and someone I look up to and 2.  I'll always be your little baby.  

 Happy Fathers Day Daddy 

                                               Love and miss you so much

             xoxo Sam